Diary Room thread

Kathy thank you so much the invite <3. Means a ton.
Omg I feel like I'm falling over from one dirty martini too many though because I have no idea what any of the dynamics really are. There's so many people in this game that I just like so much, so I will stand by them. lmao I love that I just snuck through the front door with my stuff (I loaded it since I plan on it being a long summer <3) before Ducky (stay strong pooh) was even done saying goodbye. How ghetto chic. Henry was the first one who noticed me and sent me a message (what a perceptive goddess).
So happy I have immunity this round too. It makes me feel like such a prom king <3.

I plan on playing a totally bitching game this season.

lmao at Turner going home. I'm sorta loving it <3? Like he and I started to actually talk a little bit before he got voted off, and he actually seems like a nice person once you talk to him, but before that I kinda thought he was always a little bit of a shit stirrer? It seems like he always has something to say when people argue and that's not cool (like just let the two people who are fighting hug it out). His La La Land avatar just makes the whole thing better btw. The gurl tried so hard in the challenge, and now she has mud all over her dress <3.

I've had so many emotions going through me this entire game. Its just been from one end to the next, and I'm just so confused and frustrated and everything. I'm pushing 30 and life can be pretty boring sometimes. It's the same thing every day. I love my family and friend so much, but I'm so close to leaving it all behind for a while and go backpacking across the country or something (kinda like the movies Into the Wild and Wild). I mean that so much. These games and people in them however over the last year (when I came back to the forums) give me something to look forward to. I know I don't post in here much, but I've had so much fun. I like to be playful and fun (it's just how I am), but inside I'm not the happiest guy in the world. Every day I wake up hopeful though, and I leave my place and think it'll be the best day ever.

I feel I've played a pretty good game. I admit that I didn't play the strongest game (though I was in alliances, won a veto and almost got an hoh that I told Henry he could have) at first (I was mostly laying in Harley's bed falling asleep against his chest every night <3), but I have really stepped it up, and even if I go next (which is possible since I think Garrett is upset with me tears), I gave it my all and that's all you can do in these. Between us (and the people on here after the game ends) I wish I had went Harley did (I was hoping all night that it would just be me). He didn't deserve that Kathy. He's such an amazing guy. I told myself after that round that I would step it up for both me and him. JB left the game and then me, Tyler, and Adam made a final 3 alliance. However a couple rounds in I wanted our gay boy alliance to work out so bad. Adam is really cool (and I think a much better player than he maybe even gives himself credit for), but Spooky has been going through a lot and Dillon became my newest sis during this game (<3). I always underrated him btw. Back on the hangout I remember him just kinda being an utr and really pleasant guy while a bunch of us were mostly talking about horror movies or something, but he's older now and is much more mouthy than I remember him being, and we get along really great. He is not a pest at all <3.
So I've been trying my best to make everything work and still do what's best for me. Spooky's a little upset though I think, and I might be the next to go. I'm staying strong, but if I do it's okay.